Feeling Down

Feeling a little depressed today. The day hadn't gone too bad until JoLyn called and asked why I had court papers trying to be delivered to her house. Ya....beats the hell out of me. The only people that have her address for me are Proactiv, Victoria's Secret and (drum roll) the barn in Kaysville I was boarding at. Ya I am betting on the later. He is a scum bag and threatened when we left to sue me for the five dollar water barrels he said we stole.....oh wait those were my clients and mine. Even though I know he has nothing on me I still know that I will get screwed and somehow end up owing him something. Because this is how this works for me. I am not positive that is what it is about but I suppose I will find out this week since I called the dude and gave him my address. I figure that it was better just to figure out what the hell it was and get it over with.

That just started the downward spiral for me. Then I decided I had no purpose in life and that I was never going to get ahead. The last few months have been a bit of a struggle though. As I have said before I believe it is all due to feeling lonely. I am not sure where the loneliness comes from, because I am certainly surrounded by company most of the time. I just feel like something is missing. And I feel a little homesick or something I guess.

On a different note, I finished Twighlight and I went and bought the other three books since I am obsessed. I am now reading New Moon. I like this excerpt from it, "Time passes. Even when it seems impossible. Even when each tick of the second hand aches like the pulse of blood behind a bruise. It passes unevenly, in strange lurches and dragging lulls, but pass it does. Even for me." I like it...it matches my mood.

But no matter what your mood is, when your room mate puts on a Werewolf head that looks like Chewbacca and chases your dog.....it's funny! I wish I could have gotten it earlier because Butch was growling with his hair up and almost attacked him. HAHA!