Saturday, August 30, 2008
I worked all day today and I am going to take tomorrow off, but most likely will work Monday...no wait I WILL be working Monday. I keep getting horses in training and we have a show next weekend.
Ava at the mall with an Okapi toy I bought her and a new Cheetah purse her mom got her.
Monday, August 25, 2008
This was my one of my favorite exhibits. How cool to get to see them so close up! And these are totally creepy!
I think I could live here. Good temperature, pretty landscape, sign me up! And after a great trip we got in some juvenile spat on the way home and pretty much didn't speak for nine hours. Cool huh? It wasn't uncomfortable at all ha ha! Love those gals with all my heart...hope we patch that up soon :)
Tuesday, August 19, 2008
Monday, August 18, 2008
I have the most amazing friend. Her name is Roxanne Hunt. She is, for lack of a better term, psychic. I won't go into detail on her but her website is roxannehunt.com if you want to find out about her. She has blown me away time and time again with her readings on my animals and my clients animals. She was at our show this weekend and talked to Butch. She said she had a recent image of me in tears and holding my dog. Butch told her this because he wanted her to know he thought he really helped me during this time. Good job Butch of course you did!
I have gone to Roxanne before for myself and had pondered calling her about my recent problems. After she talked to Butch she said I should call her and she would talk to me no charge because she knew there were some things I would like to talk about. I felt relieved and told her I was struggling. I said I have been in a funk I can't get out of. She said, "You will break out of it when you are ready." There was a lot of truth in this. As bad as I want to come out of it I can feel that I am not quite done grieving the issues. Such a simple statement held so much truth. She assured me that I would break out soon and that I would be fine.
I am fascinated at how our bodies heal. You get a cut and if you take care of it you can heal it in a week or so depending on the severity. But all wounds heal from the inside out. Unfortunately if you are not careful you can re-open the wound. The same goes for wounds on your heart and soul. In time we heal, but when you are hurt the following days are critical and the wound can continue to 'bleed'. You have to let it take it's course and you have to be aware that all wounds need time to heal. You will not just wake up one morning whole again. No matter how soon you want to be better you can not rush healing. But you can help it if you take care of it an nurture the wound. Neosporin and bandaids work good for matters of our body. And surrounding yourself with people who love you and want you to be happy help with matters of your soul.
Time truly heals all wounds. But they can leave scars. The scars on our body remind us of the time you fell down or cut yourself. The scars on our souls are there to help us grow as people. They remind us of the pain and they teach us lessons to carry thru life. Hopefully each time we learn a lesson. Sometimes we learn not to make the same mistake or sometimes the lesson is a coping skill we may need for later in life.
Our lives serve a purpose. We are here to teach each other and develop our souls. I truly believe that people come and go in our lives for different reasons.
A Reason, a Season, or a Lifetime
People come into your life for a reason, a season, or a lifetime. When you figure out which one it is, you will know what to do for each person. When someone is in your life for a REASON . . . It is usually to meet a need you have expressed. They have come to assist you through a difficulty, to provide you with guidance and support, to aid you physically,emotionally, or spiritually. They may seem like a godsend, and they are! They are there for the reason you need them to be. Then, without any wrong doing on your part, or at an inconvenient time, this person will say or do something to bring the relationship to an end. Sometimes they die. Sometimes they walk away. Sometimes they act up and force you to take a stand. What we must realize is that our need has been met, our desire fulfilled, their work is done. The prayer you sent up has been answered. And now it is time to move on.
When people come into your life for a SEASON . . .Because your turn has come to share, grow, or learn. They bring you an experience of peace, or make you laugh. They may teach you something you have never done. They usually give you an unbelievable amount of joy. Believe it! It is real! But, only for a season.
LIFETIME relationships teach you lifetime lessons; things you must build upon in order to have a solid emotional foundation. Your job is to accept the lesson, love the person, and put what you have learned to use in all other relationships and areas of your life. It is said that love is blind but friendship is clairvoyant.
Thank you all for being a part of my life. And I am glad to know y'all are related to me and so you have to put up with me :)
Yesterday's the past, tomorrow's the future, but today is a gift. That's why it's called the present.
Thursday, August 14, 2008
I started the day irritated in general. The barn owner asked me the same freaking question she asks me everyday when I ride this particular horse, "How high are you gonna show him this weekend." And every day I tell her, "Marge this one doesn't show." And she says, "Oh I thought for sure you would be showing him he is doing so good for you." Ok I try and let this go because the woman is eighty two years old, but for God's sake!
Next, I had to have a coming to Jesus with Jessica's horse during her lesson because he has not been putting his head down. That irritated me....ha ha.
Then my friend Dave didn't say or do what I wanted and that irritated me.
So I drive to the post office in Farmington to get my mail and decide I will stop at the Chevron for a Coke. I thought that might help my mood. I walked in and the Farmington cop that makes a habit of harassing me starts laughing at me and says, "Look who it is." I make a point to look right past him and beeline for the drink station. He continues to mock me and make nasty remarks about me to everyone in Chevron. Oh yes this happened. My face was beet red and I wanted to say something like, "Did you get made fun of a lot when you were young so this makes you feel better now?" But I held my tongue and ignored him.
For my final stop I decided to go to Kohl's to see if I could find a dress for a wedding this weekend. The girl at the cash register was mean to me and I thought to myself.......this is why people snap and go on killing sprees! Ha ha cause it just never freaking ends!
Yes, I realize that most of this is not as bad as I make it. But when you are in a funk everything seems worse than it is. I will be at a show this weekend so say a prayer that it is super successful for me so that I don't SNAP!
Monday, August 11, 2008
That just started the downward spiral for me. Then I decided I had no purpose in life and that I was never going to get ahead. The last few months have been a bit of a struggle though. As I have said before I believe it is all due to feeling lonely. I am not sure where the loneliness comes from, because I am certainly surrounded by company most of the time. I just feel like something is missing. And I feel a little homesick or something I guess.
On a different note, I finished Twighlight and I went and bought the other three books since I am obsessed. I am now reading New Moon. I like this excerpt from it, "Time passes. Even when it seems impossible. Even when each tick of the second hand aches like the pulse of blood behind a bruise. It passes unevenly, in strange lurches and dragging lulls, but pass it does. Even for me." I like it...it matches my mood.
But no matter what your mood is, when your room mate puts on a Werewolf head that looks like Chewbacca and chases your dog.....it's funny! I wish I could have gotten it earlier because Butch was growling with his hair up and almost attacked him. HAHA!