What JoLyn is doing...

I just want to inform everyone that JoLyn got her 'laser' yesterday and she will be spending the weekend drinking beer doing the laser and sleeping.

I worked all day today and I am going to take tomorrow off, but most likely will work Monday...no wait I WILL be working Monday. I keep getting horses in training and we have a show next weekend.
Ava at the mall with an Okapi toy I bought her and a new Cheetah purse her mom got her.

My boy swimming in the canal at our barn. He do be a good swummer!!!

C.A.L.I.F.O.R.N.I.A.

First things first lets ride the horse. One of the most talented horses I have ever rode. I need some sponsers...asap.

This is our continental breakfast. I hope you get enough to eat.

This is on our hotel....does this alarm you?

Looking like a couple babes!

Look ma! We can build sand castles.....very poorly ha ha!!

The darling girls that made me miss my Lex and Liv!! Same ages, this is Bailey and Oakley.

How cool is this? I think I was happier than any of the small children with us!

From left to right: Kim, Oakley, Bailey, Lauren, Taylor, Me, Cory.

Here I am on my favorite animal from the Wild Animal Park, the Okapi.

This was my one of my favorite exhibits. How cool to get to see them so close up! And these are totally creepy!

I think I could live here. Good temperature, pretty landscape, sign me up! And after a great trip we got in some juvenile spat on the way home and pretty much didn't speak for nine hours. Cool huh? It wasn't uncomfortable at all ha ha! Love those gals with all my heart...hope we patch that up soon :)

Taking a trip

I will be in Oceanside, CA if anyone needs me :) Lauren, Kim and I are going to sit at the beach and try a few horses. I am trying a grand prix mare that one of the judges said they would lease to me. I have to get rid of my mare first, but might as well try her while we are there. Be back Saturday!

Healing

I find myself intrigued with the healing process. As you know I have been going through a rough time. Nothing major caused my upset. Just some inner struggles with change.

I have the most amazing friend. Her name is Roxanne Hunt. She is, for lack of a better term, psychic. I won't go into detail on her but her website is roxannehunt.com if you want to find out about her. She has blown me away time and time again with her readings on my animals and my clients animals. She was at our show this weekend and talked to Butch. She said she had a recent image of me in tears and holding my dog. Butch told her this because he wanted her to know he thought he really helped me during this time. Good job Butch of course you did!

I have gone to Roxanne before for myself and had pondered calling her about my recent problems. After she talked to Butch she said I should call her and she would talk to me no charge because she knew there were some things I would like to talk about. I felt relieved and told her I was struggling. I said I have been in a funk I can't get out of. She said, "You will break out of it when you are ready." There was a lot of truth in this. As bad as I want to come out of it I can feel that I am not quite done grieving the issues. Such a simple statement held so much truth. She assured me that I would break out soon and that I would be fine.

I am fascinated at how our bodies heal. You get a cut and if you take care of it you can heal it in a week or so depending on the severity. But all wounds heal from the inside out. Unfortunately if you are not careful you can re-open the wound. The same goes for wounds on your heart and soul. In time we heal, but when you are hurt the following days are critical and the wound can continue to 'bleed'. You have to let it take it's course and you have to be aware that all wounds need time to heal. You will not just wake up one morning whole again. No matter how soon you want to be better you can not rush healing. But you can help it if you take care of it an nurture the wound. Neosporin and bandaids work good for matters of our body. And surrounding yourself with people who love you and want you to be happy help with matters of your soul.

Time truly heals all wounds. But they can leave scars. The scars on our body remind us of the time you fell down or cut yourself. The scars on our souls are there to help us grow as people. They remind us of the pain and they teach us lessons to carry thru life. Hopefully each time we learn a lesson. Sometimes we learn not to make the same mistake or sometimes the lesson is a coping skill we may need for later in life.

Our lives serve a purpose. We are here to teach each other and develop our souls. I truly believe that people come and go in our lives for different reasons.


A Reason, a Season, or a Lifetime

People come into your life for a reason, a season, or a lifetime. When you figure out which one it is, you will know what to do for each person. When someone is in your life for a REASON . . . It is usually to meet a need you have expressed. They have come to assist you through a difficulty, to provide you with guidance and support, to aid you physically,emotionally, or spiritually. They may seem like a godsend, and they are! They are there for the reason you need them to be. Then, without any wrong doing on your part, or at an inconvenient time, this person will say or do something to bring the relationship to an end. Sometimes they die. Sometimes they walk away. Sometimes they act up and force you to take a stand. What we must realize is that our need has been met, our desire fulfilled, their work is done. The prayer you sent up has been answered. And now it is time to move on.

When people come into your life for a SEASON . . .Because your turn has come to share, grow, or learn. They bring you an experience of peace, or make you laugh. They may teach you something you have never done. They usually give you an unbelievable amount of joy. Believe it! It is real! But, only for a season.

LIFETIME relationships teach you lifetime lessons; things you must build upon in order to have a solid emotional foundation. Your job is to accept the lesson, love the person, and put what you have learned to use in all other relationships and areas of your life. It is said that love is blind but friendship is clairvoyant.

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Thank you all for being a part of my life. And I am glad to know y'all are related to me and so you have to put up with me :)

Yesterday's the past, tomorrow's the future, but today is a gift. That's why it's called the present.

Can't get out of this funk!

No one is gonna read my posts anymore cause I am to depressing! I just can't seem to break out of this funk. I keep thinking that something really cool is gonna come along and free me, but it ain't happening.

I started the day irritated in general. The barn owner asked me the same freaking question she asks me everyday when I ride this particular horse, "How high are you gonna show him this weekend." And every day I tell her, "Marge this one doesn't show." And she says, "Oh I thought for sure you would be showing him he is doing so good for you." Ok I try and let this go because the woman is eighty two years old, but for God's sake!

Next, I had to have a coming to Jesus with Jessica's horse during her lesson because he has not been putting his head down. That irritated me....ha ha.

Then my friend Dave didn't say or do what I wanted and that irritated me.

So I drive to the post office in Farmington to get my mail and decide I will stop at the Chevron for a Coke. I thought that might help my mood. I walked in and the Farmington cop that makes a habit of harassing me starts laughing at me and says, "Look who it is." I make a point to look right past him and beeline for the drink station. He continues to mock me and make nasty remarks about me to everyone in Chevron. Oh yes this happened. My face was beet red and I wanted to say something like, "Did you get made fun of a lot when you were young so this makes you feel better now?" But I held my tongue and ignored him.

For my final stop I decided to go to Kohl's to see if I could find a dress for a wedding this weekend. The girl at the cash register was mean to me and I thought to myself.......this is why people snap and go on killing sprees! Ha ha cause it just never freaking ends!

Yes, I realize that most of this is not as bad as I make it. But when you are in a funk everything seems worse than it is. I will be at a show this weekend so say a prayer that it is super successful for me so that I don't SNAP!

Feeling Down

Feeling a little depressed today. The day hadn't gone too bad until JoLyn called and asked why I had court papers trying to be delivered to her house. Ya....beats the hell out of me. The only people that have her address for me are Proactiv, Victoria's Secret and (drum roll) the barn in Kaysville I was boarding at. Ya I am betting on the later. He is a scum bag and threatened when we left to sue me for the five dollar water barrels he said we stole.....oh wait those were my clients and mine. Even though I know he has nothing on me I still know that I will get screwed and somehow end up owing him something. Because this is how this works for me. I am not positive that is what it is about but I suppose I will find out this week since I called the dude and gave him my address. I figure that it was better just to figure out what the hell it was and get it over with.

That just started the downward spiral for me. Then I decided I had no purpose in life and that I was never going to get ahead. The last few months have been a bit of a struggle though. As I have said before I believe it is all due to feeling lonely. I am not sure where the loneliness comes from, because I am certainly surrounded by company most of the time. I just feel like something is missing. And I feel a little homesick or something I guess.

On a different note, I finished Twighlight and I went and bought the other three books since I am obsessed. I am now reading New Moon. I like this excerpt from it, "Time passes. Even when it seems impossible. Even when each tick of the second hand aches like the pulse of blood behind a bruise. It passes unevenly, in strange lurches and dragging lulls, but pass it does. Even for me." I like it...it matches my mood.

But no matter what your mood is, when your room mate puts on a Werewolf head that looks like Chewbacca and chases your dog.....it's funny! I wish I could have gotten it earlier because Butch was growling with his hair up and almost attacked him. HAHA!

Current Obsessions

This book is called 'Twighlight'. I am obsessed. I think it was meant more for teenagers, but all of my students are reading the series and talk about it all the time. Curiosity got the best of me and the day book four came out I went and got the first one in the series. WOW! I am in love. It is actually about a vampire family that lives among humans and does not feed on them. One of the vampires falls in love with a human....sounds weird and I was skeptical but I can NOT put it down. I am so excited to have three more books in line when I finish this one.

I keep talking about how funny Sean's dog Vienna is and look how cute! She sleeps like this all night and never moves. After I took this picture she started growling at me and bit my hand ha ha. Sean says she used to bite his x-wife if she tried to cuddle with Sean and stuff. I love it!

Left to right....Shea, me and Ginger. We went out Friday because Shea's fiance was having his bachelor party. We did hers last weekend but needed something to do while he was having strippers grope him. We went to the Outlaw in Ogden and needless to say we all managed to get three sheets to the wind even though I had to be up to teach lessons and go to a show. Yes...I wanted to kill myself in the morning. I did make it to work though and got feeling decent about four o'clock.

In other news, my vet check did not go great. I suppose it could have been worse. My horse does have changes to her navicular bone. Navicular disease is changes in the bone that is in the heel of the horses foot. It is basically arthritic changes. My horse has very slight changes and the vet diagnosed her pre-navicular. There is not really any treatment for it. When it gets bad years down the road you can de-nerve them. This takes the feeling away so they are not in pain. The down side is that they don't feel their front feet and may not know where they are stepping. The good news is that I bought her because she is a mare in case anything went wrong she would still be worth something as a broodmare. I am hoping to still sell her to someone wanting a riding horse, but the price is gonna be disgustingly low.

Good news is that the computer is up and running. I bought a wireless adapter and router which of course didn't work. So one of Sean's friends came over to work on it and called the router company which walked us through getting it to work.

The bad news is that I still can't figure out how to work my Zune. I downloaded the software and it did not download properly so I have to start over....grrr!

Well I plan to spend the day reading and watching Lifetime in my pajamas. XOXO to all!

What doesn't kill us......

The good thing is that in the jumping world I have mastered a lovely position.

Notice the lower leg right behind the girth....eyes and chin are up and looking forward. I have released my arms in the middle of his neck. My back is arched and my seat is slightly out of the saddle but not ahead of it. My heels are pointed down...could be a little more but that is being picky :)

That is the only good thing currently! The rest is me just trying not to drown. I can't get my damn internet to work on my computer despite several hours and hundreds of dollars. Which means I really can't use my new Zune cause Sean doesn't really download music on his computer. My horses vet check went to hell in a hand basket so I will be taking her in to the vet tomorrow to figure out what the problem is. I was riding a two year old that I have in training and it got frustrated and just reared over on top of me. My arm is only slightly a mess but I am still in one piece. The idiot cowboy freaked out last week and told me he never wants to talk to me again. It was his way of assuring me that he is not good enough for me. He is mental I can't even go into the whole story.

What doesn't kill us makes us stronger right?

And for everyone that thinks I am now an idiot and can't seperate my paragraphs....it's not my fault the computer God's hate me and it no longer does what I ask.

Have you seen this man?

This man lives in my yard. Sean and I were enjoying some shish-kabobs when I started to analyze the man. He totally freaks me out and I told Sean I am pissed that he painted him with white gloves, mouth and eyes. I said that me and him will be found in a bloody mess and that guy will be gone from the yard. So if I am murdered you will know who did it. We put the axe up after I had this thought. The woman was out front in the wagon and we moved her out last night too.

I thought it was funny....everyone thinks Sean and I have something going so when Sean's friends call he always makes a comment. Last night Troy called and asked what he was doing. Sean replied that he was just watching his room mate jump on the tramp in some daisy dukes. Ha ha! It was true but not like that! Troy said, "Man one day I am gonna get me one of those deals." Anyway, nothing going on with Sean and I. He has a very nice girlfriend.

Showed last weekend. Went ok. My mare is at Saltaire Farm on trial until Thursday when she has her vet check. Cross your fingers. She was Reserve Champion again at the show. There is one horse that is amazing that I can't quite beat for Champion. The girls were good. Amy got Champion on my horse Jake that she leases.

Everything is going pretty good. I finally joined the 21st century and got a Zune. For those who aren't aware it is the microsoft version of Ipod. We will see if I can actually use it.